I keep sneezing. Hopefully it's just a cold and not swine flu (as I don't get sick pay and I'm not too keen on spending half of the summer in bed with a box of Kleenex)

My mother informed me yesterday that she will be getting married in September 2010. She's been with her boyfriend for just over a year, and of course things are serious. However, when I heard the news I felt completely shocked. In all honesty, I feel as if he has stolen her away from us. We all used to be so close, but ever since he walked into her life, she spends most of her time locked away in her bedroom with him. Even when he's working, she hibernates in her room alone and only ever leaves to make a cup of coffee. She doesn't seem to want to meet for lunch anymore and the loving hugs she used to give us, seem to have disappeared. I congratulated her, basically faking my happiness. The truth is, I'm not happy about the news, because I know that once he finally lives here, he'll more than likely come first. I can't tell her how I really feel, because it will cause so much tension and I don't want to ruin anything, because she seems so deeply happy. Thankfully my sisters feel the same, so atleast I'm not the only one feeling this way. Am I just being selfish?...

Hmm, having different work shifts each week is beginning to really get on my nerves, as I can't seem to plan anything. The boyfriends work hours change weekly also, so we find ourselves having to see each other for a few hours here and there. However, I do appreciate every minute we spend together, but it would be great to just have one day off together and drive off into the sunshine (I'm daydreaming again) His friend from New York (the guy we will be staying with in January) is coming to London at the end of the month. It will be fantastic to finally meet him and a chance to have a couple of days off work to explore, laze around in coffee shops and have fun. I paid off the rest of my flight money on pay day, so I am now left with pennies. On the positive side, atleast I don't owe anybody any money. The annoying thing is, I have already wasted a bit (ok, the things I purchased are pretty and I will wear/use them of course) but I promised that I would be careful. Am I just a typical girl? (I blame elle.com)

I am rather thankful that I didn't need to be in work today. I doubt I would have been much help, plodding along with a pocket full of tissues (attchhhhooo) Usually on my days off, I waste far too much time complaining that I'm bored. But surprisingly, boredom hasn't even crossed my mind today. I've pretty much spent my afternoon, curled up in bed, nibbling on jam on toast, trying to rid myself of 'swine flu' (please please please don't let me have it!!) I haven't minded being a hermit at all. It's actually been quite enjoyable! Hmmm, I'm working 4pm-8pm tomorrow (Yes, 4 hour shifts seem like nothing, but they do tend to drag) My boyfriend finish's at 9pm, so I think I'll steal his car keys, curl up on the back seat and read the latest copy of ELLE, whilst I wait for him. Annoyingly, I can't afford to sit in Starbucks (I say with a frown) I wish they gave out FREE coffee to POOR addicts! Maybe I should simply smile and flutter my eyelashes? (hopefully the butch looking lesbian that works evenings will give into my charms)

I'm currently stalking my cousin's pictures on Facebook. He's one of those really cool guys who studied photography in London, has equally cool friends who all wear vintage clothes (ripped 80s denim and really BIG hair) are extremely photogenic and even look beautiful in the morning after a drunken night out. I'm browsing through his New York albums. Every picture looks as if it should be in Vogue. He's from my father's side of the family. Most of them are quite rich. One cousin even designs jeans for Urban Outfitters (maybe I should inform them, so I can get myself a discount???)

It's 6pm, I'm still sneezing. Maybe I should make myself a green & lemon tea and relax in a lavender scented bath?

P.S- I'm so in love with boyfriend blazers....

Until Next Time

x